This Time Last Year

So I find myself feeling a little nostalgic during this period of time but it’s hard to not think about “This time last year” when the previous year was so full of momentous occasions. Thankfully, something happened to my iphone calendar and I can no longer reference the actual dates, just the general time frame, so I won’t be too obsessive about it. I do however happen to know that July 17^th was the date of my level three ultrasound and the same day they took my blood for the Harmony blood test; I swore I wouldn’t remember the date we got the phone call telling us the test results, but I lied, it was Friday, July 27^th. Also, if you see me driving down the street and I might be crying, it’s probably because I’m listening to Mumford and Sons “I Will Wait”.  I first heard that song on my way to one of many Non Stress Tests  and I kind of listened to it on repeat a whole lot. Now, whenever I hear the song, my mind instantly goes back to that time, which makes me a little melancholy.  It’s not sadness about what happened, it’s sadness about the time frame. There was so much more happening during that time than just the baby stuff- when I think back on it, I call it my “survival mode” because that’s what I was operating under, survival. The good news is, I survived, I’m better for it, and I imagine that each year, thinking back, will get a little easier and easier, and perhaps I should stop listening to that dang song.